Friday, December 10, 2010

makeup and fashion as an outlet

When I was a teenager I wore makeup and cared about what I looked like.  Soon it would become obsolete to me.  I am gonna do some background venting, which in turn will allow me to focus 100% on my cause.  I had a terrible childhood.  Cliche, I know, but it was not the kind you would want to have to repeat.  From the age of four, the adults in my life failed me miserably when it came to preparing me for my future.  My mom, dad, step-dad, grandparents on both sides, I would say they were the ones who should have cared the most.  After all, I did not decide to come into this world, my parents decided to make an immature decision at very young ages which resulted in my creation.  Now before you think, "oh, she's angry", I'm not anymore.  I did manage to get over it, but it took a looooong time.  As it took a loooong time for me to mature into an adult because no one around me was doing a good job at teaching that part to me.  Now, since I finally managed to mature into adulthood, I figured out what I want to contribute to the world.  I want to teach women to use makeup and fashion as an outlet for further creativity.  It was a good start for me and I wish I had been able to focus on that a lot earlier in life.  I do believe that kids now days are being totally corrupted by the media.  They are being taught that they have to look a certain way to make something of their selves.  How sad that ten year old girls think they are "fat".  The only way to change this vicious cycle starts with the parents of these young kids.  If I can help in any way it will have completed that missing piece inside of me.  Before I start I want everyone to know that I myself do not look like a barbie doll.  I am 5 feet tall and weigh 165 lbs.  I have been overweight since my sophomore year of high school when depression got its hooks in me.  I recently got a membership at my local YMCA, not to get skinny, but to get in shape and become healthier.  I am using makeup and fashion as my outlet, but not everyone is going to have the same interests and I am okay with that.  My overall hope is to just show girls and women that whatever interests you can be used to your benefit.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

a world of concealers

The world today is full of misleading concealers.  Women are told from an early age to conceal the real them.  We have to be tall, skinny, and beautiful.  My daughter is only ten and already talks about her outer features daily.  She is concerned about her weight and the whiteness of her teeth.  Why does the industry do this to us?  I love makeup and fashion, but I also believe that if you are ugly on the inside then you are ugly on the outside.  We need to teach our future women leaders that it is okay to love makeup and fashion, but you have to be genuine and empathetic towards others.  Makeup should not be used for concealing, but for enhancing what you have and embracing your uniqueness.  We are not supposed to be perfect.  It is the things that are different and unique that make us beautiful.  I have spent the last ten years of my life searching for the person I am "supposed" to be, my purpose so to speak.  I missed out on alot by analyzing everything.  I am who I'm supposed to be and my purpose is to raise my kids and teach them what they need to know to raise their kids.  I think the reason I was doing so much searching is because I did not have anyone there for me growing up who was preparing me for my life.  Every adult around me growing up failed me in that aspect.  Yes it is a shame that nobody wanted to do that for me and it did set me back in teaching my own kids, but nevertheless I have figured it out.  It took me a little longer than most, but now I am here and ready to make a difference in the lives of all the girls and women who feel they are not perfect and need to conceal something.  Lets work on enhancing and showcasing our inner and outer beauty.  For the sake of our sanity...lol.